:: Decepticon®..Flipsidebabee ::

:: Friday, June 21, 2013 ::

Reading my old blogs made me realize how damaged I was. I was a very angry person. I came across as ignorant as if I was never eloquent nor articulate. I was selfish. You really don't open your eyes until something impacts your life with such a huge overwhelming force. I'm grateful for that force. Without such an event, I would not have seen the resentment brewing and boiling inside me. I have truly found the source of my weaknesses: abandonment and anger. I understand the significance of acknowledging that. Being a mother changed me. Patience was easily integrated. Being a single mother changed me. Being weak was never an option. I love you my sweet child. We grow with knowing what we should fix. With God's graces and guidance, we can always do his will (Proverbs 3:5,6). We also need to be aware that God will not directly tell us what to do like a rider and horse (Psalms 32:8,9). The blessings from God allows me to dig deeper into my soul to fully comprehend what his intentions are when he gives me challenges. With new found clarity, it is absolutely refreshing to have a new love enter your heart. By praying and reflecting, I can see the Holy Spirit pointing me to a certain direction. Previously, I would've given up; I would not have fought for this wonderful man's love. Never have I felt the strongest connection spiritually, mentally, or physically. I didn't think God would point me to happiness. Never should I have strayed... Here is the underlying challenge: love and be loved. Just listen and do his will. I have never been so sure in my life. I am truly happy. I love you, my soulmate...
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